Shine On You Crazy Diamond

I am taken somewhat by surprise by my seriously low energy level this week. In fact, although I had planned all day to blog tonight, I almost blew it off, thinking that instead I would get into comfy PJ's, put on my nice warm nightcap, crawl into bed and devour my latest Newsweek magazine (ok fine, so it really would have been People magazine). But it has been a week since my treatment (and last update) so blog I must.

Because the bone pain is so bad after the Neulasta shot, I had asked my doctor for something a little stronger than Tylenol PM. She gave me a prescription for something designed "to take the edge off" (I love the terminology they use, I would have said "to blast me into the stratosphere, mumble Led Zeppelin songs incoherently and dance with fairies"). Needless to say, in true "announcer jinx" fashion, I had little to no bone pain this time around and didn't need the high octane stuff, in fact didn't even need Tylenol. Don't get me wrong, it was no picnic - major fatigue and lingering depression (complete with alternating weepiness and well...weepiness. Not much of an upside during those 48 hours). But relatively pain free. I should have known that once the weapon was in hand I wouldn't get to use it.

So I got through New Year's Day and Friday, chowing down on Diane's ziti (yum yum thank you!) and rolling around miserably on the bed when I couldn't summon the wherewithal to read or watch TV or listen to my iPod. It's gotten better since then, but I do find myself to be a bit more drained at the end of the day now than after the first two treatments. I try to remind myself that this is how it is, the cumulative effects, and that once I am all finished I will regain my strength and energy and focus. That I will once again Zumba and spin and yoga and walk to Dunkin Donuts on Saturdays with Warren. And I try to enjoy each "today" no matter how difficult because really, I've got a pretty cool life.

Good things this past week (or so): New Year's Eve (I managed to stay up!); getting my nails done (ah, normalcy); dinner with Jodi and Len and John; Caralyn S. donating her hair to Locks of Love (and she looks gorgeous!); getting to wear all my new Lia Sophia jewelry; Diane's ziti (alright, I know I already mentioned it but it was really good!); Brianna's 18th birthday; talking to Patty M.; watching the first season of "Rescue Me" on DVD (hmmm, what can we read into that I wonder?)

Bad/weird things this past week (or so): the shower chair Warren bought me (ewww, I am NOT old and infirm yet); a million commercials for GM cars (is that how you're spending the bailout money??); San Diego Chargers winning (I will NOT root for the team that knocked my Broncos out of the playoffs); my poor, overworked, worried, tense husband (hint,hint needs a Guys Night Out and/or someone to call and see how HE is doing, not how I am doing).

And finally, Dan the Man offered to shine my head for a quarter - do I hear 50 cents?

Blessings and Love to All!