Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Breathless




This has been quite an eventful 10 days, starting with a Girls Night Out in New York City on the 19th and ending with my oncology visit and Zometa infusion yesterday. Oh yeah, and a little event called Thanksgiving worked its way into those 10 days. Yep – I’m exhausted. But Christmas is a-coming so there’s no time to relax just yet.


Let’s get the boring stuff out of the way. I met with my oncologist yesterday and she and my other doctor want to treat me with the Zometa every other month instead of every month in an effort to forestall any possible side effects related to jaw necrosis. So I had my treatment yesterday, but don’t have to go again until late January. So far I’ve had minimal side effects from either of the medications (some bone pain, some neuropathy, some fatigue) – nothing to write home about, as they say, and nothing that seems to interfere with my everyday activities. All the blood work looks good, my recent mammogram came out clean, and other than having a bunch of small tumors in my body I’m perfect!


Ahhh, Girls Night Out. My best pals, a fun restaurant, and 2-for1 martinis. You all get to see the “before” picture (above). We’ll keep the “after” pictures to ourselves. JK – we may not be the wildest bunch, but I find myself smiling and laughing an awful lot when we’re together. So Patty – what are we going to do for your 50th???


Thanksgiving was a usual frenzy of shopping, preparing, cooking, eating, drinking and football with an added dose of fun when Taryn and I ran a 5K Turkey Trot that morning. She had to do a 5K as a requirement for her Jogging class and asked me to run with her, this despite my not having run in a couple of years (my hips and knees just couldn’t tolerate it any more – spin, yoga, and Zumba seem to be much easier on the old joints). But guess what? We did great, better than expected although not nearly at the level I once was. Dinner was filled with laughter and toasts and enough food to send my uncle and stepdad and brother-in-law home with plenty of leftovers. We enjoyed the company of Emily’s college friend, Cat; we were grateful to have all 3 kids at our table this year; we offered our thanks for all that we are privileged to have; we groaned when it was time for dessert (“I’m so full!” was the standard lament), but sampled a little something anyway. We rooted for the Lions; we booed the Cowboys; and we cheered loudly for the Jets.


Of course, the best part of Thanksgiving weekend was yet to come – the annual Black Friday shopping trip to the outlets with Taryn! Up before dawn, out to Riverhead while the sky lightens, and into the shops as the rest of the world is just beginning to stir. Although a much more frugal trip than in years past, it was nonetheless very satisfying as was our lunch at Friendly’s afterwards. Top it off with a movie and a nice nap later and we agreed that it was an overall fantastic day.


Yep – I’m exhausted. But I am nothing if not appreciative of the fact that I still have the energy to do all this, that the inevitable deterioration of my body is not yet manifest, that putting together a Thanksgiving feast for those I love or sharing a meal with friends is not yet beyond my abilities. With so much to look forward to in the coming month (The birth of our Savior! The decorating of the house and tree! The sharing of gifts, both practical and magical! The vacation cruise planned with Taryn!) I am truly grateful that, for the time being at least, God has granted me physical strength as well as emotional strength.


Blessings and Love to All.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Hit Me With Your Best Shot

The last few days have been filled will shots of medicine, shots of vodka, and shots of reality. It will come as no shock to anyone that the shots of vodka are my preference!

Last Thursday I got the first infusion of the bisphosphonate drug Zometa that my oncologist now has me taking. It wasn’t fun (IV insertions rarely are), but it did go quickly and without any complications. I did have a fever and chills most of Friday, but that turned out to be unrelated to the drug and did resolve itself by Saturday. Unfortunately, it manifested itself in Warren on Saturday night, but again, by Sunday he was fine as well. Just a fluke illness, I suppose, and today I’m feeling good.

Saturday night was Girls’ Night In – my neighbors and I getting together at my house for “Cocktails and Cupcakes” (NOT “cocktail cupcakes” Carol – although your margarita cupcakes were quite divine!). We gathered together to enjoy a stiff drink (mmmm whipped cream vodka – thank you Jill!), a sugar rush (yep, we all ignored the fruit and veggie platters in favor of the salty and the savory), and stories that made us both laugh and cry ( MJ’s meatloaf anyone?). We missed those neighbors that couldn’t join us (Linda and Sue) and we toasted those of us that did. We tossed our shoes off, curled up on the couches, sipped our drinks, and talked about our kids, our husbands, our homes, our families, our pets, our health, our schools, our government, our neighborhood, our bad habits, our good qualities, our lives. Michelle had us crying, Sandra had us laughing, and Mary had us shaking our heads (“I’m leaving now. No I’m not.”). We took a picture to preserve the memory and posted in on Facebook to celebrate our good fortune with all of our friends. And…we all relished the extra hour of sleep afforded to us by Daylight Savings Time!

With a quiet football-filled Sunday to recover, it was back to reality on Monday. Very early this morning, I took my stepdad to Memorial Sloan-Kettering again for a further procedure that will hopefully keep his liver cancer at bay for some time to come. We are fortunate that it hasn’t spread yet, that it can be contained, but we are cognizant of the fact that this won’t always be so, and we pray that he enjoys many more years with us. He is tired of working so hard to stay healthy, regretful of youthful choices made that brought him down this path, fearful of more invasive treatments (hmmm…some of this sounds very familiar!). But he is grateful for his family and for his good-hearted lady friend Dee (who has taken such very good care of him); he still manages to enjoy a very good quality of life, with recent travels to Italy and Vermont; and he still jokes and teases as only he can (“you know that what I really have is kryptonite poisoning”). Please share some of the prayers you reserve for me with him as well.

Blessings and Love to All.

Monday, November 1, 2010

No Surprise

After seeing my doctors last week, as expected (or at least as hoped for) there will be no major changes to my current treatment plan. No surgery, chemotherapy or radiation for now - just one medication being changed (the estrogen blocker) and one medication being added. The consensus is that the tumors are so small that they are not giving me any symptoms and therefore it would be best to try and contain their growth at this time with the aforementioned medications.

One medication (the estrogen blocker) is a pill taken once daily to replace the once-a-month shot that I had been getting. (Note: a short tutorial on estrogen blockers. I have a particular type of breast cancer that is called ER positive. That means my tumors grow when fed by estrogens, so medications that block circulating estrogens may help in stopping tumor growth or development. And despite the fact that I had my ovaries removed over 11 years ago - a long story - estrogen can still develop in one's body, for instance by eating fats. Surprise! - more cancer info you wish you never had. Me either.) The other medication is new, a bisphosphonate designed to reduce bone destruction and important for someone whose cancer has spread to the bone. This medicine will be infused once a month at the hospital, much like chemotherapy but without the benefit of that happily-altered-state-inducing Benadryl.

With both medications I've got a 3-page list of possible side effects so it'll be an adventure finding out which, if any, I develop. With luck there will be no surprises and I will continue my energetic, extraordinary, everyday existence at least until it's time for the next PET/CT scans to determine the effectiveness of this strategy (about 2 months from now).

I'm not quite sure how to convey how well I'm doing both physically and emotionally. While I have my moments (and always will, even if I live to 90), I truly feel that at this stage (ha ha cancer pun) it would be pointless to worry. I feel too good! And I am SO appreciative of all the good wishes I've received - as I told my pastor, keep the prayers coming because I've had good results so far. You are all my angels.

Blessings and Love to All.