In Between Days

They are the days I love the best.  When there are no doctor's appointments, no scans or tests, no court dates to attend, no documents to copy, no pressing engagements, nothing except living.  The in-between days when I can pretend that I'm not sick, not being tormented, not worrying about the future but rather enjoying the present moments.  No doctors, no lawyers, no hospitals, no judges.  Days when I feel like maybe, just maybe, there's a chance for a long life.

Days when I can binge-watch Netflix and not feel like I'm "wasting precious moments."  Days when I can eat a whole box of Kraft macaroni and cheese and not feel guilty for not "eating healthier."  Days when I go to work and come home feeling satisfied that I've made a difference instead of wondering "what the hell am I still doing working?"  Days when I can be supportive of someone else in need instead of being the one needing some help.  Days when I can buy a new pair of boots and not feel like I won't get enough wearings out them to make it worth it.  Days when I can wake up and say "Meh, I'm gonna skip that yoga class" and not feel like I'm not "fighting to take care of my body." 

Days when all I feel is this:

"Life is amazing.  And then it's awful.  And then it's amazing again.  And in between the amazing and the awful it's ordinary and mundane and routine.  Breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful, and relax and exhale during the ordinary.  That's just living heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life.  And it's breathtakingly beautiful." - LR Knost

I know the in between days don't last - but in the in between days I don't care.  It's all just wibbley wobbley timey-wimey stuff anyhow (a Doctor Who quote to annoy my daughter who hates when I quote shows over and over again that she doesn't watch!).

Blessings and Love to All.